Throughout my adult life I have accomplished things that others assumed I could not. I thought it was pure determination, and it was but more. I went to graduate school when logically I did not have enough money… but I just went. I only applied for paid internships and expected the school to compensate and support me in certain ways. They did and I got paid internships all 4 years. Didn’t think about manifestation, but my thoughts did direct my actions and things did actualize on more than one occasion. in other situations, when burdened by self-doubt or ambivalence it didn’t work out so well.
...yet we find it difficult to banish fear, anxiety or discouragement, all of which are powerful thought forces, and which continually send the things we desire further away, so that it is often one step forward and two steps backward.
Here I am in Hawaii, indeed. I got here yesterday afternoon. I have been planning this for a few years, before MKMMA. I drew pictures, I visited islands, briefly lived in a culture, I interviewed people in my field, I applied for a license here. Pretty darn consistent with having a goal that I kept narrowing and doing things to support the goal. So… I am here. I however, have never visited Kapaa.
I didn’t plan so much for Now What? I did this when I moved to Colorado, 2X. First time moved away from LA when they didn’t pass pollution limiting legislation. I was probably 19, I moved because of my beliefs. I knew I would wait for state residency to go to school, and that was my only plan. I hadn’t ever been to Colorado before. My husband and I got in a van and just moved, I went to school and enjoyed Colorado. The second time, after graduate school I didn’t like the job offers I was getting so I again moved back to Colorado and got a job after I moved. In these situations I was sure I could do the above.
Okay, I am not going to work as I did in Arizona. Not in duplicate… but perhaps a variation. This part is not a sharp, clear-cut and definite. Now I am indeed sitting with myself with a manifestation that isn’t at it’s completion.